Life's like that

(Lorna, pinjam tagline blog kau.hehe)

Lets' story-story...

1. Long time ago when I was just a kid especially during primary school, we use to have a diary/autograph and they will ask their friends to write something in it. Konon ada ucapan, biodata, mau ada gambar lagi bah! There was one friend who wrote in my diary "jangan suka meninggi diri" to me. I was quite angry and ashamed that one of my close friend thought of me like that. Then I asked her why do you think so? She answered because when I got high mark (or the highest in the whole batch of students) for a certain subject, I tend to "brag" about it. I was like "WTF" (not literally) I told other people because they asked me what my result was. By the way, of course I am proud of my result. Kalau kau orang terpandai di sekolah kau, tidak kah kau bangga? But, I started to keep it to myself and learnt to say "boleh la, ok-ok la" whenever other people ask what my result was.

2. During my standard 6 (darjah 6), we were suppose to be busy to prepare for our UPSR. Honestly, I think I never really did any extra-study or revision throughout my primary 1-6. All I am interested is at decorating and cleaning my classroom to be the cleanest class every week. *haha* Then one day, during Kemahiran Hidup class I need help from a friend. She said to me "before I help you, tell me your secret to be so smart and clever." Adoi..if I tell her that I did nothing for my studies for sure she won't believe it. So, I just tell her the usual blah blah stuffs. Go for tuition, latih tubi blah blah totally just blahss. Little did I know,she bad talked me after we part ways to continue our secondary school. Saying that I wasn't that clever and smart and blah blah. But, I just say to myself "oh my, maybe you just don't have the same brain as mine".
p/s: I got straight A's for my UPSR but wasn't that excited. Happy yes, Thrilled no.

3. Then we move on to my secondary school. New place, new friends. I am trying to fit in into this new situation even though I do have 2 or 3 friends from my previous primary school. Un-happy-ly, an old friend told me that I am a hypocrite during my From 1. I was quite hurt that he told me that as we have been *old* friends. He explained that I tend to NOT tell the whole truth to other friends when the truth is very hurtful and sad. How am I not suppose to be a hypocrite when I just want to protect my friends' feeling? So much of telling a white lie. *sigh*

4. I always love Maths during my high school. I find it effortless to understand *mind you, strictly only during high school* and answer. My height was not that tall so I prefer to seat right in front of the teacher's table to get better view of the board other than it is easier for me to ask questions. During classes *Maths especially* we were always given this flow of learning. Teacher teach, then practice. There will be a lot of questions given some hard some easy. When my friends go to the front to ask guidance from the teacher and at the same time I have questions too, I tend to be very impatient waiting for the teacher to think how to solve the question. I will just somehow "help" the teacher to solve the question and continue on asking my question. Came to a time where my friends will ask me first then ask the teacher if I cannot solve it. Being in this awkward situation, I did feel that the teacher is not happy with me *being a person who helped her a lot*. So, she wrote in my report card *she was my class teacher in form 2* "inilah akibatnya jika and leka.tumpukan perhatian di kelas" when my overall marks just dropped few digits. *sigh sigh* like I care so much of my result.
p/s: I did put some effort for my revision for my PMR. Mind you, I did it the last minute. I still remember, when I was trying to do revision for a subject *forgot what subject* and it was only past 10pm. My dad warned me to sleep before 10pm but I still haven't finish so I ignored his warning. You know what he did? He switched off the main house switch to get me to sleep. I remembered being angry and said "saya tidak dapat A baru kau tau!". *sigh* I did manage to score straight A's.

So much of growing up. Having bitter memories that somehow shaped to into who I am now. Nevertheless, thank you for saying it to my face. I learned so much on life because of you.

Bye!